It Got a Little Better

  I guess you could say today went pretty well. I went to Algebra where all of the good people are and nothing bad happened. Well except for the fact that I don't know how to use this weird calculator no one else has. Then I went to my favorite teacher's class. Mrs. Neal is my reading teacher and is one of the most wonderful people I know. She's an artist and taught me how to play guitar. I get to sit by my friend in there so it went well. Third was good. I filed a lot.

   Then came the dreaded fourth period. I sat down in my seat and got out my book. Then the mean guy, we'll call him G, came and yelled out, "She's reading again!" So this is what I said. It may sound harsh but this guy isn't nice to any girl it seems so I just thought he deserved it.

"I'm sorry that I'm reading. I know it's such a stupid pass time and doesn't benefit anyone at all. I think I'll just sit here and bat my eyes and twirl my hair because that is obviously the kind of girl you like. I know that you don't like girls with more than air between their ears."

So after that he sat there a minute, gave me a weird look, and said, "I don't get it."

"Exactly," I said, and picked up my book and read. He didn't say anything to me for the rest of the class period.

My ex boyfriend smiled at me and we talked. It's all okay now.

I went to 5th where all of my friends are and had a good time. The boy in my class with Aspergers Syndrome called me Beautiful Sweet Emma. He's a wonderful person. I wish people wouldn't be mean to him.

6th and 7th were great. I am beginning to like school a lot.

But there is this guy I like. We'll call him D.
D and I have known each other a while and we are wonderful friends. But the weird thing is we've always had crushes on each other, but at different times. Right now it's my turn and he has a girlfriend. But I guess I just need to wait it out. He's a wonderful person. D and I think the same way. He and I love history, and want to travel. We both don't understand why people don't like to learn. I really like him. I hope that something works out.

Well I guess here in a bit I will go to bed.

Maybe I'll dream of Paris. I hope.

Manners

So I started school a couple of days ago. I was looking forward to a new start on the year and looking forward to maybe enjoying a school year, finally. I get to school, sit down in the cafeteria to wait to go to class, and I get pushed off the seat. All of my stuff went everywhere and I landed flat on my face. People laughed. I didn't.

The next day I went into my fourth period class and sit in my seat. My ex boyfriend who hates me sits diagonally from me and wont even look at me. So another boy comes up to me, obviously being dared to do this, and says loudly, "Is it weird to sit near your ex?" I said no and read my book.  Then the boy in front of me turns around and says with a look of judgement and shock on his face, "Why are you reading a book. That's stupid." I didn't reply because I didn't feel like talking to anyone after the humiliation. Then he says, "Why are you so mad?" I said I wasn't and then my ex says to him that I'm not very nice.

I wish people had manners. It kills me to see people act like that. I wanted to cry. And hit someone. But the other thing that bothered me so much was that he was shocked I was reading! Is there something I'm missing. He called me stupid for reading. Does reading not show signs of intelligence?

I'm nervous about tomorrow which I was hoping wouldn't happen this year. I just got over school anxiety only for it to come back.

Maybe some Belle and Sebastian will help get my mind off of this.